I have been writing New Year’s Blogs for four years now and I think this one may be the hardest for me to write, so I’m going to format it a bit differently.
You see, the first nine months of my year were taken up by pretty much just one thing and since completing it in September my life has kind of been put on pause. I feel a bit lost at the moment so it wasn’t until I looked back over my blog from last year and begun really thinking about 2018 that I truly begun to feel like I’d actually achieved something. And in case you haven’t guessed it, that thing was getting my MA.
I am now officially a Master of the Arts!
And it’s only now that I’m thinking about this in such great detail that it’s hit me just how big an achievement that is. Just before Christmas I had my bi-annual appointment with my consultant and after discussing my current situation with her, for the first time in 20 years, I was prescribed emergency medication. My epilepsy is so bad that I need to be given a controlled drug whenever I have a seizure. This increase in severity is not new, I’ve been having these super big seizures all year as well as suffering from extreme anxiety, depression and ASD and I still got myself an MA! I’ve always been determined not to let my condition prevent me from achieving things and although it has made things hard and limited me in certain ways, it definitely has not stopped me.
When I put this in my list of aims at the start of the year, I specifically stated ‘MA at Merit Level’. This was key for the same reason getting a 2:1 Degree was back in 2017. It’s what I need to continue my education and do a PhD. After hunting for jobs and doing a two week internship I’ve decided this is what I want to do now. Partially because I currently don’t feel physically able to pursue a full-time career and partially so I can one day teach. So I’m glad to say I got the Merit.
There are two other key things that I did in 2018 neither of which were on my prepared list. The first being getting my PIP! I won’t say much as my battle against the DWP has pretty much dominated this blog page for the last six months but I’m still proud that we did it. The second is my art, although I had plans for my development, I never thought I would have a piece displayed at the London Illustration Fair! I was asked to create a design for a GOSH campaign which was later turned into posters and t-shirts and put on display at the LIP. Seeing my work on display last month was just unbelievable, I simply stood there for five minutes grinning!
I don’t know where the hell my life is going at the moment and I don’t want to put restrictions in place. But I do have a few things I want to achieve this coming year:
- Set up and complete a Kickstarter Campaign for my art
- Lose one stone in weight and keep it off
- Work out all the complexities and begin a PhD
Thanks again for all your support this year, luckily I’ve not felt the need to write as much as I used to but every now and then this blog really helps me and I like to think it helps others too. I hope you’ve all had a great year and here’s to an even better 2019!